Life and its Unpredictability

Whilst all of the “Mahowl” of gearing up before the much-awaited internship phase of a lot of us, I just try to get myself all energized by conserving all of the energy by sleeping and relaxing and reminiscing all of the moments lived, experienced in the past one year. Just when you think of it you are struck by one massive force of life- its unpredictability.

Talking to a dear friend after ages; you are all set to listen to him bashing you up for being all busy all the time; but quite unexpectedly everything he says simply makes me feel all the more special and just makes me miss him, miss the good old days of chaddy buddying et al.

You wake up the other morning to the birth of two babies who have respectively brought immense joy to the lives of your cousin’s family as well as your friend’s family. That very moment you realize that its not always additions that life gives in form of its surprises. “Life Subtracts” too – well validated in the form of losing a friend in a massacre just before the term ends. Well that’s how life makes its calculations.

Life and its forces! You go meet up new faces- new born babies and as the day dries up you meet an old lady all fine physically but alas, she’s struck with Alzheimer- hardly can she recognize her own son, and to the dismay of many, nobody can say the reason behind her this state. A state totally attributed to life’s unpredictable forces.

An IIM Shillong phase un-awaited, uncalled for- and whoa! After one year I am sulking at the thought of not being able to live that life for two months. A lot of speculations over the one year; being a part of a committee learning to live with people’ expectations; trying to fulfill not only one’s own dreams but also others’, your learning curve definitely takes a high. Never indeed had I thought that after leaving a professional experience of 11 months one would get into a heavier dose of the professional experience and that too in the midst of academia. All through being part of one committee. Was that indeed possible in this year; I still am anticipating!!

Wanting to get internship in Bangalore and ending up in Delhi instead makes me complain; but here again I am sure that the void would be filled by life’s unpredictability. Bonding up with old friends after long, opening up to a whole new place and most importantly a 2-month period filled with experimentations is what I am looking forward to. After all life isn’t about bargaining alone. Sometimes without bargaining we get what we need and sometimes getting after bargaining also doesn’t pay off well. So, let unpredictability take its toll and thou shalt I myself roll!

To Randomness and Spacebound!!

Listening to the song "Spacebound" on replay, feeling all happy and trippy(not that i am drunk), but all in a different way; a way unexplained and uninterpreted just felt and felt by all your senses. Yes I am talking of the randomness which life gifts you, a bag full of randomness. Wish to have it or not, you'll still be blessed with it.

And why this craze, why to be so RANDOM, when life can seem perfect all organized to the minutest detail. BLAH! The simple answer is live the simple way- live it with randomness; no rules, no obligations, no boundaries - and am not talking of boundaries set by others, but by yourself. Its all about letting loose, letting it go, enjoying the small things of life. Like a friend said - "dinner parties...well ya they are good, but roadside junkies make life more spicy and F.U.N.!!"

If randomness had to write an autobiography on itself , it would say bunk - randomness doesn't exist in reading or writing, or in expressing - it simply can't be captured within the pages of a book; impossible to be bound within its covers. It is a one-way affair; totally. Just a doer and a roller coaster ride to make him take the trail, the unseen, the untaken and the uncertain.

Emotions, Expectations, Aspirations - well flashy right! All that matters is simply the urge to be happy and smile forever. Life without "Control", life full of "Freedom". Oops I forgot freedom doesn't even exist as its antonym is equally vanished from the book of life. Thats the transient mode one gets transferred to - that's what i call Spacebound.

And that's when you call yourself as the master of your fate, the captain of your soul!!